Breathe

Sigh. I let out a long breath. I had been holding my breath again without even realizing it. I have always done this for as long as I can remember but lately it has become more and more frequent. Sometimes my husband even reminds me to breathe if we are watching tv and he notices. I seem to hold my breath while I'm watching  tv or when I'm thinking. And I'm always thinking. As for this occurring more and more often it appears that while my children age my brain thinks more and more. It becomes so full of pieces of information  not only pertaining to myself or my work but of each of my children and my husband. Keeping track of bills and homework,kid's birthday parties,health insurance, car registration,appointments, phone calls,meetings,after school activities. The list goes on.
Breathe.....
While working or driving going about my day I have constant chatter going on in my brain. I am constantly adding bills and  subtracting money from my bank account in my head trying to figure out how I'm going to pay for everything every month. And now....breathe...Christmas...
The chatter in my head increases ten fold. The gifts the Tree the dinners and decorating. I'm afraid this year I'm going to hold my breath so long I'm going to pass out ' and if I do it will probably be somewhere in the toy aisle..
If I'm lucky enough some other shopper will find me and bring me back to earth and I will stand-and my head will start to spin ' omg what am I going to make for dinner? Did I wash my daughter's soccer uniform? I have to buy a stamp....'
For the love of god-breathe....